Can't Think of a Title

The thing is, I know myself. I know my faults and my strengths. I know what makes me stronger and yet I also know what my weaknesses are. I know the things that I need to change in myself in order to be a better person but I also know that some things are meant to stay the way that they are because we don't need to change ourselves for others.
When they look at me, I know what they see. I know what they hate in me and I know what they like. During my freshman year in college, when I was still in CLSU, I have this sudden desire to shift courses and apply for the university's Psychology program. Part of it was because I think psychologists are cool, but mostly it was because I know I can be a good one. When people talk to me, I read behind their moods and behaviors and I will have an understanding on what they want me to reply.
For an example, I think that was last week, my classmate joked and told me that we were going to have a surprise defense on our case study. I know that he wanted me to complain or to cry out in surprise or horror. But the stubborn part of myself decided not to give what he wanted. I simply smiled and nodded okay.
I also know what people dislike in me.

• Some people hate me for being too indifferent when it comes to school works. But the thing is, I'm really not that apathetic. It's just, if I was faced a certain problem (school work and projects), I deal with it. I'm not one to complain about reasonable things. If you see me complaining, it's because I know something (deadline and others) is unreasonable.
• Some people hate me for being too... open? I don't know the exact word, but it's when I always say what I want to say, no holds barred. If there's one thing I strongly believe in, it's that we're all given voices for a reason. They may hate me for exclaiming profanities one after the other, but I don't care. I don't owe anyone anything and I like being myself and that leads us to...
• Some people hate me for being myself. Or is it because they want to be like me? I'm not being boastful or anything, but I know that when someone hates you it's because you have something that they want.
• Some people hate me for being too happy. Do you know what real pain is? Do you? Have you ever encountered something so deep in your life that nothing can seem to lift you back up again? I did. When my dad died, some piece of my soul (and my heart) died too. I thought I could never be happy. There were times when I wanted to die too. But happiness is a choice. It was my choice to make and I chose it. I choose to be happy because I don't want to live in constant emotional pain. Petty and nonsense problems just don't get to me anymore.

I'm happy just the way I am. I may not be the kindest soul on earth nor the most likeable, but that's fine with me. Some people will hate me, some people will not. And as my Facebook cover photo and my Twitter header states, I just don't care if people like me or not anymore.

Photo Diary of the Week

Photos collected from my Twitter that I posted this week!

Shot! Yesterday at Mama's birthday (08-29-2013) Iphone macro shots never fail to amaze me.

 

Sorry na-crop kita banana! :)) (08-29-2013)

 

Last Tuesday. When Jorenn brought his DSLR to school for our class shoot :) (08-27-2013)

 

My current Facebook profile photo. By Jorenn. (08-27-2013)

 

Finally! After months of not having an id (because I lost my current one before the term ended last sem). (08-28-2013)

Actually, ang kwento niyan, hindi naman talaga kami magpapa-id that day. Nagkataon lang na may dala kaming COR at OR tapos nadaan kami sa AVR tapos konti lang yung tao kaya pumila na din kami. HAHAHAHA

You have the VOICE and you have the RIGHT

Sa bawat pagkaen na binibili mo sa mga fast food chains, sa bawat produkto na binibilli mo sa supermarket, sa iba pa, 12% ng kabayaran mo ay napupunta sa tax. Value Added Tax o VAT. Kahit ang limang taon na bumili ng ice cream sa 7-Eleven, 12% sa binayad niya ay napunta sa tax.
And that makes us taxpayers. Taxpayer tayong lahat. Nagbabayad din tayo ng buwis, hindi man kalakihan, pero sa maliit na paraan, nakakapag-bigay pa din tayo ng pera na DAPAT SANA ay maipapamahagi sa mga kababayan nating kapos.
Kaya lang hindi eh. Wala eh. Yung pera sana na ipang-gagawa na lang ng classrooms, na ipambibili ng libro ng mga estudyanteng gustong mag-aral pero walang pambili, pabahay sa mga taong nagkalat sa Manila dahil walang matirhan, pambili ng pagkaen ng mga pulubing walang laman ang tyan.
Sa mga politikong ibinulsa ang pera ng bayan: HINDI BA KAYO NAAAWA? Hindi ba kayo naaawa o nahahabag man lang sa twing may nakikita kayong matanda sa tabi ng kalye na namamalimos, na may sakit pero walang pambiling gamot? PANO KAYO NAKAKATULOG SA GABI? Pano kayo nakakatulog knowing na kung ipinamahagi niyo lang sana yung pera na dapat ay mapunta sa kanila, ibinulsa niyo pa? Masaya ba kayo sa twing nakakabili kayo ng mamahaling kotse kahit na alam niyong pera ng ibang tao at ng mga Pilipinong nagbabayad ng tamang buwis? PUTANGINA NIYONG LAHAT.
Hindi ko sinasabing mabuti akong tao, pero ang sasama niyong lahat. MGA WALA KAYONG KONSENSYA.
Isa pa, eto naman ay para sa mga Pilipinong sinasabihan ng "epal" "papansin" "may masabi lang" "nakikisali" ang mga kapwa nila Pilipinong MAY PAKIELAM SA BANSA: Tangina niyo den. Pinag-aaral kasi kayo ng mga magulang niyo, kung ano-ano inaatupag niyo kaya habang buhay kayong nananatiling bobo. Tandaan niyong lahat: “Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike.” ― J.K. Rowling
Mas gugustuhin ko ng malaman ng buong mundo na ayoko kay Napoles at sa mga pulitiko na yan, kesa naman wala akong pakielam sa nangyayari sa sarili kong bayan
Yan ang dahilan kung bakit hindi tayo umuunlad. May mga taong (politicians and lawmakers to be specific) na lagi tayong ginagago pero WALA tayong pakielam. Okay lang satin. WALA tayong reaksyon.
Tandaan niyo: DEMOCRATIC country tayo. TAYO ang boss nila at HINDI sila ang boss natin. Kung may nagawa silang mali, we have all the right in the world to complain.
FILIPINOS UNITE: LET'S PUT A STOP TO IMPUNITY NOW.

Wacky

If there's a thing that you guys need to know about me, it's that I tend to have wacky faces in photos. I ALWAYS DO. Some were intentional, some were not. But that's just the real me, you know. Haha! I love my can't-have-a-decent-shot-in-photos self. On that note, I still have to ask Jorenn if he'll still love me for me. Lol.

Summer

I miss summer. Sigh. It's been raining for weeks and I kind of miss the heat. Don't get me wrong, I love this cuddle weather and it makes me want to lounge all day... But I guess, that's the problem. The rain makes me drag my feet and just stare into space... for an entire day. I know I'm a procrastinator, but with this kind of weather? I put the pro in procrastinate.
Okay, so back to my summer post... I miss summer. I miss not having to think of anything but when will the next episode of House M.D. finish downloading or what will be the next book I'm going to read. I hardly watch my favorite series anymore! And last month, I think I've only read a few books. Good thing I've read a bunch of books this August and I'm hoping that I get to read more on September.
The classes are not so bad. School is not so bad at all. But unlike when the weather was still warm and I was always energized to attend my classes, right now I just want to feel the coldness of my pillow and blanket and/or inhale mugs of coffee. Sigh...
But you know what? Every situation has a silver lining!And even though I have a bad case of summer blues, the BER months are coming! And that means that Christmas is also drawing near! Yayyy! <3